There is nothing to find,
it is already there
inside of you.
Let go and uncover who you really are.
Walk this Way…
Quantum Resonance Healing is a system of healing that uses the knowledge of Quantum Mechanics, Physics and Resonance to provide a frequency where healing can take place. As like many things in this world this system has commonality with many healing traditions.
World English Dictionary
3.the condition of a body or system when it is subjected to a periodic disturbance of the same frequency as the natural frequency of the body or system. At this frequency the system displays an enhanced oscillation or vibration
Private Sessions available $85/hour
Workshops are done in small groups with a maximum of 12 participants. Sacred space is created and held in a quantum resonance field created exclusively for the group energy. Unmeasurable care is taken to hold a safe place to deeply go inside and transform. Workshop topics vary from working with the Chakras, Spiritual Aromatherapy, Women’s Circles, Meditations, Releasing Beliefs and Ascension.
I began my working life in a successful sales and marketing career. I loved developing relationships with my clients but found that the sales position was quite stressful and unfulfilling or shallow.
After I married, I left my sales career behind and started my career in Holistic Health. I began with Massage Therapy, studying quite deeply, structural integration and energy work.
I have been working and part-time around my family for 12 years, expanding my knowledge in Holistic Healing Modalities and growing personally.
I am a life long learner and am passionate about learning new ways to heal ourselves, physically, emotionally and spiritually.
How I Experience My Life
My life is experienced as a wonderful journey where challenges are opportunities to learn and grow.
My greatest joy is learning and teaching what I learn with others to facilitate healing and transformation.
I am inspired by all areas and modalities of healing and see a place for each one in this great web of life, they are all connected into a beautiful tapestry. Each serves its purpose and function for each person as a unique individual.
My greatest passion is to teach and coach others into their own transformational process using what I have learned to facilitate them.
My ideal student or client is one that has a burning desire to learn and transform their life and who is ready to make a commitment.
Vegan Clean, Earth Green 4 hours
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The New Ascension Chakra System 4 hours
Meditations, Chakra Reading and Balancing, Chakra Tea and Custom Blended
Aroma-therapuetic Chakra Support
Quantum Resonance Healing
Soul Sisters, Women’s Circle
Thousand Oaks coming in the Fall
Introduction to Aromatherapy
History of essential oils, Introduction to the properties of safe essential oils, blending and safety. Includes three products that you blend to take home.
Spiritual Aromatherapy 4 hours
How oils are used for spiritual growth and support. Selecting oils by divination
Custom Blending 4 hours
A student favorite. Advanced blending of essential oils, bath salts, salves and emulsions like lotions and creams.
Host a class of 6 or more and receive your class for free!
Class fees are $20 per hour plus materials.
Private Sessions/Lessons $85/hr
What the Bleep Do We Know
The Celestine Prophecy
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Herbalist (custom formulated)
Daniel Light, LAc
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Dr. Leland Carroll
11650 Riverside Dr 8
Studio City, CA
Dr. Gael Parks, LAc
same as above
Pre-Natal and Birthing
Michelle’s Book List
Spiritual Growth Books
The Starseed Transmissions by Ken Carey
Vision by Ken Carey
The Third Millenium by Ken Carey
Smart Medicine for Healthier Children
Natural Dog Training by Kevin Behan
Biology of Belief
The Body Electric
Animal Speak by Ted Andrews
Women Who Run With the Wolves
Earth’s Children Series by Jean Auel
Morphic Resonance by Rupert Sheldrake
Hands of Light by Barbara Brennan
Light Emerging by Barbara Brennan
The Fragrant Heavens
The Fastest Way to Get Pregnant Naturally, by Christopher D. Williams
Great basic information of how conception takes place and how to monitor your cycles.
Inconceivable, by Julia Indichova
A true story of one woman’s triumph over “impossible” infertility and how she did it.
Pre-Conception and Pre-Natal Consciousness, Pre-Natal Bonding
Cosmic Cradle: Souls Waiting in the Wings for Birth, by Elizabeth M. Carmen
The spiritual connection, dreams and contacts with your children to be. Very large book with a lot of research data.
Stories of the Unborn Soul: The Mystery and Delight of Pre-Birth Communication, by Elizabeth Hallett
Stories of contact from souls waiting to be born and how they guide their parents to their conception and birth.
What Babies areTeaching Us, by Dr. Wendy Ann McCarty www.wondrousbegginings.com classes too.
Order from her web-site
Dr. McCarty teaches Pre-natal consciousness and Pre-natal psychology classes to Doctors, Nurses, Mid-wives, Doulas and more. She has extensively researched birth trauma and how it can be avoided.
The Secret Life of the Unborn by Dr. Thomas Verny
Nurturing the Unborn Child by Dr. Thomas Verny, Pamela Weintraub
Tomorrow’s Baby: The Art and Science of Parenting from Conception through Infancy by Thomas R. Verny, Pamela Weintraub
The Mind of Your Unborn Baby by David B. Chamberlain
DVD: “What Babies Want” www.whatbabieswant.com
APPAH—Association for Pre & Peri-natal Psychology and Health
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Forestville. CA 95436
Pregnancy and Childbirth
Childbirth Without Fear, Dr. Grantly Dick-Reed
Out of Print, order used from Amazon.com
Personal experiences of a Physician witnessing natural pain-less childbirth in cultures where they were never told it was “supposed” to be painful and his discoveries.
Babies Remember Birth: And other Extroidanary Scientific Discoveries, by David Chamberlain, Ph.D.
Out of Print, order used from Amazon.com
A MUST READ!! This is a scientific book, that tells us what babies are actually capable of in-utero. Completely change your relationship with your baby and deeply bond while pregnant. It gives a whole new appreciation to babies intelligence, feelings, and innate wisdom.
Active Birth, by Janet Balaskas
Order here: http://tinyurl.com/3grbn
The Thinking Woman’s Guide to a Better Birth , by Henci Goer
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Sit up and Take Notice , by Pauline Scott
Order Here: http://www.midwiferytoday.com/reviews/situp.asp
What you don’t know, CAN hurt you. Educate yourself.
Back Labor No More, by Janie McCoy King
Order here from Rick King: http://www.backlabornomore.com/contact.htm
Are the labor positions hospitals are asking us to get in the best for labor? Do they make the most physiological and anatomical sense? NO! Find out what mid-wives have known for centuries and most women will do instinctively.
Or used: http://tinyurl.com/33g9h
Mother’s Intention: How Belief Shapes Birth
A Commonsense Guide to Safe, Comfortable, Guilt-free Birth in Five simple steps
By Kim Wildner, CCE, CHt, HBCE
Mind Over Labor by Carl Jones
“A clear, concise guide, using mental imagery to making labor and childbirth what it is—a natural process.”
Journey Into Motherhood: Inspirational Stories of Natural Birth by Sheri Menelli
For more positive birth stories go to: www.hypnobabies.com
Pregnancy and Birth Psychology
Pregnancy as Healing by Gayle Petersen
When Survivors Give Birth (sexual abuse survivors) by Penny Simkin
Natural Pain-Free Childbirth Education www.hypnobabies.com
What is the meaning of this?
With 2011 coming to a close, I am reflecting on this year. What a ride! I just need to list a few things for myself, for the record and I am sure I will leave some things out.
I chaired the Winter Faire the first year we were at a new school.
I applied to graduate school.
I went to my first sweat lodge and did it twice in one weekend.
That experience and the connections I made shifted my entire life, I wasn’t able to eat meat, I wasn’t able to tolerate much of what I considered normal in my life.
Authenticity came to visit to a degree that I had never experienced. Its sharp blade began to cut things out of my life, it had a power of its own.
Relationships were shaken to the core, including my marriage and close friends.
I chose not to go on a big family vacation that had been planned for over 6 months based on alignment. We took a trip to Lake Shasta instead and it shifted our life.
My children led me out of public school into homeschooling. Then they led me to their passions, which they could not express before. They could not fully step into them without my complete and total support for their unique needs.
I started graduate school right on the crest of the huge decision to homeschool. I suffered, my kids suffered a great deal through letting go of the old, being judged and being physically ill. I basked in the glow of total love and support for our choices. Spirit gave me all the signs and synchronicity that I needed to know I was on the right path. I had to accept the unknown, I still do. using of love and not fear. Like choosing a graduate program that didn’t end in a particular career, like a Marriage Family Therapist, for example. I picked a program that filled me full of joy and excitement. Just as my children did.
The common thread is I used my heart as my compass and journeyed into the unknown….
One of the passions that I followed and fully supported was horses. Alyssa now has her own horse. That is a story in itself, and I will sum it up to say that it was completely out of the ordinary, synchronistic, amazing and lucky. That is why we call him Lucky. I knew that it was a huge decision, a huge commitment. I felt the butterflies and nervous tension in my body. I had no idea how much he would change our life, I still don’t.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” Joseph Campbell
The events of the past several months will take some time to tell. Suffice it to say I am a new person, a new mother, a new wife in a new marriage. I did not sit down and decide to do these things, I did not use my will to change my life, I surrendered to the energy and pushed off from the safe shores into the center of the river and let it carry me to where I am now. Still in the flow, and since the surrender I see the beautiful and often astonishing, surprising synchronicity of living in this way. It isn’t perfect, there are many challenges and ascension pains are still part of my life, similar to my children’s growing pains.
In the last month or so the energies have effected my pituitary gland and I feel it activate at random times as an energy buzz on the bridge of my nose between my eyebrows. My crown chakra is very active and I am aware of the energy there daily. I have drawn out how I perceive the new chakras of ascension and am trying to make sense of an antenna like system above the head that is configured like the sacred geometry of the tree of life. I also have been aware of hormonal shifts that have affected my cycle and my oldest daughter. I am synced now exactly with the moon and use a new time/calendar system. www.lawoftime.org
This shift happened through stepping out of the morphic field of public education and into homeschooling. This fit the need that we were all feeling to be at home more. In our first couple of weeks we studied the history of our present day Gregorian calendar. My children were outraged and we began exploring ancient calendars and synchronistically came upon the 13 moon calendar which itself is an activator or synchronometer of cosmic energy completely aligned to the natural earth rhythms.
I am looking forward to celebrating 11-11-11 tomorrow with my children and holding a ritual and giving them a teaching that has been making itself known in my consciousness.
Journal Entry After Meditation
This overwhelming feeling of being so weighted down, sluggish, feet aching as if I had been walking for days, the feeling of not wanting to leave the house perhaps it is necessary. Perhaps it is a an idle, a neutral between gears. Perhaps the body, our biological container for the new higher frequencies that are being embodied, needs a rest, a breath before it can install the upgrade. The upgrade is here. I have received the upgrade, I have the information about what I need to do to process the new energy and become the new me. The me that can handle the rapid and ferocious information, the me that wakes each morning to meditation and receives the direction for the day blowing in through my windows. What kind of day it needs to be, I feel myself into the day. In this way, I am in the natural rhythm that the mother earth so lovingly provides for me and all her creatures. I move my body, because it is in my nature to do so and it supports my structure to be in balance, to be able to process and thrive in the new earth reality. This is the guidance I have been receiving. Meditate, Write, Move your Body, Love, Connect, Align, Nature, Play, Joy, Feed my body well (I have very detailed information!) I have been feeling stuck, heavy, overwhelmed and in resistance to the very guidance that will set me free. I am in idle between gears awaiting to surrender into the flow. I surrender to the best that I can be.
“…a restorative gift: sacred idleness. An unexpected,
Melodic day of undoing to balance the discordant days of doing to much. Like grace,mt is blessing had come out of thimble; it was completely impractical but absolutely necessary, and it was savored with thanksgiving.” Sarah Ban Breathnach
My life is in balance, grace, joy and connection when I meditate, write and move my body daily. I take deeper breaths of life and it feels good.
That which feels hard, the resistance of not doing my guidance is more difficult, uncomfortable and painful than moving through the resistance, which is based in fear not in love. Moving into the loving rhythm of self care and self love, flowing into meditation, music, scent, movement, connection, nature, alignment, truth, and love creates a web or structure of support for all of the energy and information that I know is coming into my field even as I write this.
I feel that the intensity volume and vibration is starting to climb up and now is the time to cleanse my body by a cleansing diet, and create a solid foundation to support where I am going. It is in my best interest and all those closest to me. I love meditation, movement, yoga, cardio barre, walking in nature, reading, writing, self-expression, spending time at home, the comfort from being with my dogs, snuggling, painting with the girls, music, scents, connection alignment and truth, they bring balance, harmony and joy to my life. And so it is.
The World As I See It (1949)
For the title essay in this work see Mein Weltbild (1931) above.
The Meaning of Life
What is the meaning of human life, or of organic life altogether? To answer this question at all implies a religion. Is there any sense then, you ask, in putting it? I answer, the man who regards his own life and that of his fellow creatures as meaningless is not merely unfortunate but almost disqualified for life.
Good and Evil
The true value of a human being is determined primarily by the measure and the sense in which he has attained to liberation from the self.
Society and Personality
When we survey our lives and endeavors we soon observe that almost the whole of our actions and desires are bound up with the existence of other human beings. We see that our whole nature resembles that of the social animals. We eat food that others have grown, wear clothes that others have made, live in houses that others have built. The greater part of our knowledge and beliefs has been communicated to us by other people through the medium of a language which others have created. Without language our mental capacities would be poor indeed, comparable to those of the higher animals; we have, therefore, to admit that we owe our principal advantage over the beasts to the fact of living in human society. The individual, if left alone from birth would remain primitive and beast-like in his thoughts and feelings to a degree that we can hardly conceive. The individual is what he is and has the significance that he has not so much in virtue of his individuality, but rather as a member of a great human society, which directs his material and spiritual existence from the cradle to the grave.
The example of great and pure characters is the only thing that can produce fine ideas and noble deeds.
A man’s value to the community depends primarily on how far his feelings, thoughts, and actions are directed towards promoting the good of his fellows. We call him good or bad according to how he stands in this matter. It looks at first sight as if our estimate of a man depended entirely on his social qualities.
And yet such an attitude would be wrong. It is clear that all the valuable things, material, spiritual, and moral, which we receive from society can be traced back through countless generations to certain creative individuals. The use of fire, the cultivation of edible plants, the steam engine — each was discovered by one man.
Only the individual can think, and thereby create new values for society — nay, even set up new moral standards to which the life of the community conforms. Without creative, independently thinking and judging personalities the upward development of society is as unthinkable as the development of the individual personality without the nourishing soil of the community.
The health of society thus depends quite as much on the independence of the individuals composing it as on their close political cohesion.
I am absolutely convinced that no wealth in the world can help humanity forward, even in the hands of the most devoted worker in this cause. The example of great and pure characters is the only thing that can produce fine ideas and noble deeds. Money only appeals to selfishness and always tempts its owners irresistibly to abuse it.
Can anyone imagine Moses, Jesus, or Gandhi armed with the money-bags of Carnegie?
Religion in Science
You will hardly find one among the profounder sort of scientific minds without a peculiar religious feeling of his own. But it is different from the religion of the naive man. For the latter God is a being from whose care one hopes to benefit and whose punishment one fears; a sublimation of a feeling similar to that of a child for its father, a being to whom one stands to some extent in a personal relation, however deeply it may be tinged with awe. But the scientist is possessed by the sense of universal causation. The future, to him, is every whit as necessary and determined as the past. There is nothing divine about morality, it is a purely human affair. His religious feeling takes the form of a rapturous amazement at the harmony of natural law, which reveals an intelligence of such superiority that, compared with it, all the systematic thinking and acting of human beings is an utterly insignificant reflection.
Morning Journal Entry
I am a sacred vessel for spirit and yet we are one. My body then is an important living container to express creativity in the manifest world. In these times it is very important to support the physical structures as massive volumes of high frequency energy/information is entering our field. If the body moves every day it adds to the bodies ability to live in comfort and strength processing new information into our cells and changing the physical and biologic structures are being created in our fields to process the new frequency new chakras and portals of energy. Moving every day, being in excellent physical condition will allow for faster integration with less discomfort and more flow. Moving your body keeps a constant flow of energy moving receiving and detoxifying.
What Do Children Know?
“Today, try listening to the wisdom of children;…observing how your pets live so contentedly in the present moment; rediscovering the surprising healing power of spontaneity; focusing on the good in any situation you are now encountering; expecting the best out of every day…” Simple Abundance, A Daybook of Comfort and Joy by Sarah Ban Breathnanch, from August 2nd.
Last night my youngest daughter asked for her Dad to come into her room after we had put our girls to bed. I was wondering about this as most times she asks for her momma. I heard the muffled sounds of her anguished crying and my husband trying to comfort her. My older daughter had come to get him, so I knew she was feeling for her sister. It turns out it wasn’t something smallish like, I want mom’s old lap top, everyone has one but me. She told her Dad that she didn’t like her school, that she didn’t belong there, she didn’t fit in, and several of her friends that she had before joining this school, were different now and she didn’t feel the same connection. So now, both of my girls are asking to be home schooled, again. My oldest daughter began to mention it in January. They each have different reasons. Madison fits in, likes most of the kids, loves her main teacher and could do without some of the specialty teachers. When we opened up the discussion she said things like. “I know the school is meant to teach to the individual child and their needs, but how can they really do that with 26 kids in the class?” Or my favorite, “I would love to spend each day learning and discovering things that I am really interested in and explore them deeply.” Wow! My husband, of course, felt horrible that our youngest was in such obvious pain. He said he doesn’t know what to do. That he thinks maybe they just don’t want to do the work. I lay there thinking, oh my god, I am going to home school again! Right when I am about to start graduate school. I don’t know where all the positive thoughts about doing that came from as I have been in complete resistance to the idea. However, I started thinking about NOT having to drive 2 hours a day, moving to our own rhythm, being home and being out of a structure that is broken. Spending time learning wonderful things, together. Our beautiful school that I love is trying to exist within a structure that doesn’t work. What the new energies that are around us are asking for is to be in alignment, truth, love and joy. Can I, with a good conscience NOT LISTEN to my children, who many times have a deeper wisdom than myself? Do I discount their intuitions, feelings and possibly their health to keep them in a system that I know doesn’t work? Fast forward to this morning. I had cleaned my office last night and discovered a book of daily inspirational reading and read the days entry and quite enjoyed it. I laid it at my bedside and decided to read it each morning before getting out of bed. Part of it is quoted above. I read it and began to process. I sat down to do my humming meditation on my king chair and both of my dogs jumped up there with me. I allowed them to be there to enjoy the love they were sharing with me and with each other and continued my meditation until I was moved to write this.
The dream comes alive as image
we have always been
always will be
you’ve loved me like no one ever has
like the love i wished for in my dreams
that night you first gazed at me
i felt you pull me to you
like the moon pulls on the sea
as if we have always been
always will be
the night we met was
a reunion of our souls
it was a remembering
at long last
you came for me
the only one who fills me up and sets me free
we have always been
and always will be
To do list
“There is a movement of spirit that proceeds from within your heart tp greet the world with the clarity of perfect action. That movement is intuitive. It is your direct link with the Source of all life. In the instant you know what to do, and in the same instant, you flow into the perfect action required.” Return of the Bird Tribes by Ken Carey
Deep connection is a theme in my life at the moment. I can absolutely feel in my body when I am experiencing a deep connection with someone. It feels wonderful. It goes beyond understanding or empathy, it is as if we are actually connected and synchronized so that I can feel what they are feeling or know what they are thinking during the connection.
The more I experience this deep connection and the synchronicity the more I want to experience it.
I have noticed a lot of research and books that relate to this experience using different terminology. Recently, I read a book titled Dogs that Know When Their Owners are Coming Home by Rupert Sheldrake. He believes it is a form of telepathy that develops over the bond or deep connection that the dog has with its owner. Today, I found a brain research article that shows via fMRI that brain activity synchronizes during communication between two people that resonates. This synchronicity follows the resonation not the other way around. http://www.wired.com/wiredscience/2010/07/mind-meshing/
Incidentally, Rupert Sheldrake is a man worth reading, he also wrote Morphic Resonance, it is a quantum biological theory of everything. Everything exists in a field. Each field effects and resonates with other fields. Mystics have known it for centuries and now science is catching up!
Also worth watching are Through the Wormhole with Morgan Freeman on the Science Channel, a series in which Rupert Sheldrake was interviewed on the 6th sense. The movies Quantum Activist and Living Matrix.
A few days before the eclipse of July I began to experience physical pain in my body. I was in a state of resistance to that pain and I wanted it to go away. Very much like allopathic medicine looks at the body and cuts out unwanted parts, I had the realization that I needed to accept it. As part of accepting the pain, I asked myself what message was it delivering to me.
The message was clear. The message had been repeatedly given to me. I had written it down. Though about the message. Thought about doing the message. I stopped short of the actual doing. The action of doing. I took some steps toward it and then met resistance to the actual act of doing it or completing it.
To me, words are extremely powerful. They hold energy, they direct it and share it with others and our collective field. This is not only a metaphysical dream but a researched fact. You can simply look at Messages in Water, HeartMath, Mystics and Quantum Physics for the proof you may need. I looked up the words resistance, action, stress and flow in the dictionary.
Here is the information below:
a. An applied force or system of forces that tends to strain or deform a body.
b. The internal resistance of a body to such an applied force or system of forces.
a. A mentally or emotionally disruptive or upsetting condition occurring in response to adverse external influences and capable of affecting physical health, usually characterized by increased heart rate, a rise in blood pressure, muscular tension, irritability, and depression.
1. The act or an instance of resisting or the capacity to resist.
2. A force that tends to oppose or retard motion.
6. Electricity The opposition of a body or substance to current passing through it, resulting in a change of electrical energy into heat or another form of energy.
v. flowed, flow·ing, flows
a. To move or run smoothly with unbroken continuity, as in the manner characteristic of a fluid.
b. To issue in a stream; pour forth: Sap flowed from the gash in the tree.
2. To circulate, as the blood in the body.
3. To move with a continual shifting of the component particles: wheat flowing into the bin; traffic flowing through the tunnel.
4. To proceed steadily and easily: The preparations flowed smoothly.
5. To exhibit a smooth or graceful continuity: The poem’s cadence flowed gracefully.
6. To hang loosely and gracefully: The cape flowed from his shoulders.
7. To rise. Used of the tide.
8. To arise; derive: Many conclusions flow from this hypothesis.
a. To abound or teem: coffers flowing with treasure.
b. To stream copiously; flood: Contributions flowed in from all parts of the country.
1. The state or process of acting or doing: The medical team went into action.
2. Something done or accomplished; a deed. See Usage Note at act.
3. Organized activity to accomplish an objective: a problem requiring drastic action.
4. The causation of change by the exertion of power or a natural process: the action of waves on a beach; the action of a drug on blood pressure.
5. A movement or a series of movements, as of an actor.
6. Manner of movement: a horse with fine action.
Habitual or vigorous activity; energy: a woman of action.
As I read the definitions I had an epiphany. Resistance as in the electrical definition caused heat or another form of energy. This happens when the energy that is trying to come in is resisted. It causes heat and I suggest inflammation and pain when we resist. It also causes an energy distortion. Is the answer action? This was my next question. As I read the definition I became aware that was not the answer. Action does have a place, it is a doing kind of energy. But the answer for me to the problem of resistance is not action, it is flow. As I read the definition of flow I was sure that this is the type of energy of being and of allowing. If I allow the energy to come into my field without resistance then it will flow. It must not stop within my field as the energy or messages that I am receiving are about sharing my gifts or caring for my mind/body/field. In the sharing and caring that I am being guided into, it is not just action that is required it is flow. I cannot just write a list and carry it out I have to ride the wave or the flow of the new information (energy) that I am receiving without resistance.
The messages I received are simple and clear. Easy to do and don’t take a lot of time. Being in resistance is painful and confusing, being in flow is blissful and comfortable. I choose flow. I choose it now and in this moment.
Travels to the Multi-verse
My pain was not physical so I switched my healing intentions into the spiritual and emotional realm. I spent time in meditation. I used the Humming Meditation and Tree Field Seal by www.jaiseed.com
I had emotional releases during meditation of grief, loss and sadness.
Next I moved into a past life meditation using a technique called Quantum Jumping (a guided visualization).
As I relaxed I began to see a scene of a woman (myself) being brought a sick child to heal. The child was on the brink of death and was brought by his mother against the father’s wishes. The father was dogmatic and powerful man. The child died and he led a group to stone me to death. I ran away and was cornered. The left side of my body took the brunt of the attack and finally killed me. I was watching as an observer but I felt what she was feeling. Initially it was fear and injustice. Then she/me came to a place of love and compassion for the father that in his grief blamed her. She sent love to him and died in peace.
I realized that I was not so much re-writing that experience but it was my reaction to it, being faced with love and compassion that helped to release my fears.
Also, current Quantum Physics believes that there are multiple realities existing in dimensions in which can be having life experiences all simultaneously. As humans we experience time in our reality. But time is an illusion and doesn’t exist in the universe. So these past lives are actually all happening at once from a galactic perspective.
Up a River Without a Paddle
Feel the fear then let it go
sweet surrender is the only cure
pain in your heart, pain in your head
dis ease, anger, anxiety or depression
feel the fear then lit it go
sweet surrender is the only cure
see the lesson in the pain, awareness and healing
feel the fear then let it go
sweet surrender is the only cure
i’m not enough, they will not love me,
i can’t be who i am, i live in fear
fear from lifetime, upon lifetime
woven into the fabric of my very being
pulling the stitch and rewriting the story
i am loved and will always be
love and compassion allow me to see clearly
feel the fear then let it go
sweet surrender is the only cure
surrender to love and truth
surrender and be who you really are
the power of love is greater than the power of fear
let love rule, your every thought, your every relationship
spread your love and allow the healing
and so it is
my head is splitting open
I cannot tolerate low vibration
transformation, elation many discoveries
abandonment, unworthiness and all my ugly beasties
ego death, painful and humbling
who I am is not what i do
all god wants is me to BE
grace, love and truth
eyes burning, ears ringing, I cannot eat meat
I look around and all I see is God’s amazing beauty
deep connection, real hugs, synchronicity
feeling crazy, out of my mind,
in my body, living day to day
my phone’s not working, computer’s quirky
I need to be unplugged
slow down and go in
it is all good again
voracious appetite to learn and read
then share it all with others
that is my purpose plain and simple
a joy, with many pleasures
time in nature, watching the mother
fills my cup again
letting go, going in
discovering again and again
a perfect mystery
I am hooked
in the spiral I am on
Love and peace
dream up the best
the structure is collapsing
create it new in love and light
shining bright new world
use what we have to spread the word
here comes change and it is good
Michelle’s Ascension Story
In meditation I was given guidance to blog my ascension experience. Everyone has their own path as unique as each one of us are. Stories are powerful and healing. If one person reads this and it helps them in their path I have more than succeeded in helping others. Just by writing this down and putting it out there, I have opened a quantum resonance field of consciousness with this story that forms a grid for others to lay down their experience.
This most recent eclipse of July 1st was very intense for me. For 13 years I have been studying alternative healing methods and am very sensitive to the collective field. Since February of this year that process has sped up to more than 20 times the rate of transformation I had been experiencing. With this amplified process I have also experienced an amplification of other senses that I have developed and uncovered over the years.
Last Wednesday morning I woke up with a crick in my neck. Within a few hours I was on full lock down muscle guarding on the left side head, neck and shoulders. It felt (feels) like whiplash. I went to the Chiropractor. Iced it, put heat on, took aromatherapy baths, had several massages all adding up to no change. I shared this with my friend and she wisely said, “then its not physical”.
I had been sensing a discordant energy with my husband but everything else was fine in my life. When I asked him what was wrong he brushed it off. Inside my body I am finding truth. It is a resonance that has a physical sensation, it occurs between my navel and my heart. When I sense alignment or truth I am beginning to get these signals much more clearly. I am also trusting them. In fact Trust is a huge thing for me right now. On Friday morning, the day of the eclipse my husband and I had an exchange that left me restless and also knowing that something was wrong, I could feel it. By the evening when we were together after a short and calm conversation I pointed out what I knew was going on. What followed was a marriage earth quake, rocking our foundation. During the next couple of hours, I was able to communicate and process through everything from a loving and compassionate place. I observed myself and was surprised by how quickly any anger quickly dissipated and shifted to love and compassion. I was amazed as my observer self felt how strong my truth antenna was operating and how much I was trusting it. The gift that this eclipse gave us is the healing on a deep, deep level each as individuals which will have a beautiful impact on our relationship. In the process of talking and processing I told my husband that I had always held back part of me from him. The part that has strong spiritual beliefs, that is psychic, empathic and a healer. I was afraid I would be scorned and he would not love me. I have always felt shy to show that side of myself. No shy is not the correct word! I have always been afraid to show who I really am to the world, including my husband. I told him, I am no longer going to do that, he gets all of me. Everyone does. This is an incredible healing for me. I am excited to continue down this path…come along….Walk This Way…
Special thanks for the incredible astrology reading this weekend, that gave me clarity and confirmation from Julia Wolfe, 661-268-0607
The Heart of the Sunflower
Over the last few months I have experienced a very fast ascension into a higher state of being that took me up in it’s current and I had no choice but to be led through the experience. I have now been given the opportunity to see myself as I truly am as I shed parts of me that no longer serve me. Ego death, to put it simply. One of the astonishing things that came out of this transformation is the inability to eat meet. This was not a conscious choice based on health or compassion, I physically cannot do it without being sick. My belief is that the ascension into a higher frequency prevents me from letting anything into my field that is of a vibration too low to exist. This is not only food but people, places, media, music, I think you are getting the point. Now, I had always had visceral feelings in my body when I was in the presence of something that didn’t feel good. I would acknowledge the feeling and go about my business. Now, I may get physically ill, feel like I might vomit and just basically be so repelled as two magnets trying to be forced together the wrong way. I have been physically ill as my body tries to integrate this new frequency on a cellular level and detox off the parts that can no longer exist in the new vibration. I have met new wonderful guides to help me through this process and launch me forward with the exact tools that I need. Thank you Julie. http://jaiseed.com/
Here I sit on a weekend retreat that my incredible husband fully supported. I am in Paso Robles, with red-tailed hawks landing on a branch 6 feet from me, rain coming down, all by myself. This is a pivotal moment in my life. When have I ever in my entire life went away for the weekend by myself? Never. I do have my twin soul Lilah with me (my Golden Retriever).
What else has changed. I have unplugged to a degree that shocks me. It may be days or even weeks that I acknowledge emails (sorry). I am almost unaware of my schedule and have double booked, missed and just been plain confused as to what day it even is. The beauty of this experience is I have learned to live in the moment, not perfectly but a significant amount more than I ever have. I have slowed down enough to make changes in my home and the structure of my family time that has had an amazing impact on my children. I am slowed down enough to be aware of the universal guidance that is being poured into my being in vast quantities that I have never experienced before.
Gratitude to Julie, to the support from my Husband and my dear friends only a few of whom can comprehend what I am saying.
I have just been reading a great book called Body for Life for Women by Pamela PeekeM.D., M.P.H., F.A.C.P. This is an excerpt that I liked.
Body-for-Life for Women Pledge:
I will give to myself as I give to others.
I will value my health as I value the health of my loved ones.
I won’t ask, “Should I or shouldn’t I? about matters of self-care.
I will just do it.
I humbly accept that I must work to be the best me I can be.
I will choose to work for myself, rather than abandon myself.
I will embrace adversity as an opportunity to test my mental and physical strength.
“life is about adapting to whatever shows up at your door.” Pamela discusses the long list of things that can get in our way and interrupt our plans to take care of ourselves. PMS, an argument, sick kids and more! “Because though you cannot always control those challenges, you can choose to how you will respond to them.”
Wisdom is always available and always within you. Access requires the quieting of body and mind and in this stillness it speaks to you and from you. It is not separate from you. Separation is an illusion.
One choice you can make today to improve your life and your health, emotional, nutritional and otherwise is to Slow Down. Slowing down has a physiological impact on your body and mind. It takes the nervous system out of the fight or flight response of the speed of the culture within which we live. Slowing down brings you into your self, in touch with your body, your inner wisdom. It switches the nervous system into the parasympatheic in which healing can take place, in which digestion takes place. Where there is anxiety, digestive disorder, or adrenal imbalance, the simple act of Slowing Down will make a change. What does slowing down look like? Sit down to eat your meal. Become aware of it. Light a candle and say a blessing or positive words prior to eating. Enjoy it. Another view; upon waking in the morning, instead of going straight to your computer, Break your Fast. You have literally fasted all night long and your body is ready to receive nutrients, listen to this body wisdom. Perhaps pull a wisdom card or meditate and set your intentions for the day. Start the day slowly and with peace.
One of the things that helps keep me in balance is my morning hikes with Buddy. I start the day in a grounded way, out in nature, listening to the birds, see the different plants and flowers as they move and change through the seasons. I move and change through the seasons. I walk when it is cold, wet, muddy, cloudy, sunny, I try to walk every day. This is a new practice and one that I am growing to love. I have coyotes come to call upon me and feel that they have come to teach me their wisdom, to play, to cooperate and about family.