With 2011 coming to a close, I am reflecting on this year. What a ride! I just need to list a few things for myself, for the record and I am sure I will leave some things out.
I chaired the Winter Faire the first year we were at a new school.
I applied to graduate school.
I went to my first sweat lodge and did it twice in one weekend.
That experience and the connections I made shifted my entire life, I wasn’t able to eat meat, I wasn’t able to tolerate much of what I considered normal in my life.
Authenticity came to visit to a degree that I had never experienced. Its sharp blade began to cut things out of my life, it had a power of its own.
Relationships were shaken to the core, including my marriage and close friends.
I chose not to go on a big family vacation that had been planned for over 6 months based on alignment. We took a trip to Lake Shasta instead and it shifted our life.
My children led me out of public school into homeschooling. Then they led me to their passions, which they could not express before. They could not fully step into them without my complete and total support for their unique needs.
I started graduate school right on the crest of the huge decision to homeschool. I suffered, my kids suffered a great deal through letting go of the old, being judged and being physically ill. I basked in the glow of total love and support for our choices. Spirit gave me all the signs and synchronicity that I needed to know I was on the right path. I had to accept the unknown, I still do. using of love and not fear. Like choosing a graduate program that didn’t end in a particular career, like a Marriage Family Therapist, for example. I picked a program that filled me full of joy and excitement. Just as my children did.
The common thread is I used my heart as my compass and journeyed into the unknown….
One of the passions that I followed and fully supported was horses. Alyssa now has her own horse. That is a story in itself, and I will sum it up to say that it was completely out of the ordinary, synchronistic, amazing and lucky. That is why we call him Lucky. I knew that it was a huge decision, a huge commitment. I felt the butterflies and nervous tension in my body. I had no idea how much he would change our life, I still don’t.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” Joseph Campbell